punkpaleo

Girl-shaped tiger

Fitday is a bit obsessive, but I’ve posted my daily intake here so I can absolutely lord it over every thinspo/fitspo/calorie counting blog out there. Each to his own, for sure, but I’d like y’all to know that:

I eat ~3500 calories a day.

Calorie counters take heed: there is another way!

I was going to add and I’m losing weight but that would make it sound like that is my goal. My goal, actually, is to become a girl-shaped tiger. I want to be capable. I want to be dangerous. I want to be powerful. I want to be a thing of muscle and sinew and teeth. I want to be able to run and hunt and explore.

My aim is not to be beautiful, or be a pretty thing. My aim is not to be able to attract you. My aim is to be able to terrify you.

Because of this goal I measure myself by my capabilities rather than my physical dimensions. So on the rare occasion when someone gets my blood up by obnoxiously making jokes or criticising what I eat, my mind goes something like “motherfucker I could kill you with my bare hands, so you don’t get to say jack about what I eat,” meaning that because I am stronger/healthier than they are, they aren’t in a good position to tell me why my diet is wrong. I don’t say that out loud though!

I think it’s healthier to measure yourself by your capabilities rather than your physical appearance, because then you don’t get caught up in all that body image rubbish. Your body shape will depend on what you want to be able to do. Maybe you want nothing more than to be able to walk to the shop: mission accomplished, no need to try any harder, no need to feel guilty because your numbers don’t match those of women on TV. I want to be able to:

• Swim 50m across a pool on one breath;
• Hold my breath for 3 minutes;
• Be fit enough to spearfish once I get the chance;
• Rehabilitate my knee and ankle so I can run again;
• Be fit enough to handle the rigours of my upcoming travels.

Comments appreciated. What are your goals?

RAAAWR